I’m Ready to Talk About It

As I typed the title I felt the tears welling up ready to spring out at any moment. I swallowed and typed the first sentence. Then the second. Now the third. September 26, 2019 I carried my heart home and let Carter run free over the rainbow bridge. These have been the toughest months I’ve…

Bring it 2016!

I cannot believe I’m writing my 2015 recap. Didn’t the year just begin? They say time flies when you’re having fun (or when you get old), so I guess I’ll claim a little of both. The last year has been such a whirlwind for me after looking for a new job and starting one at…

(First World) Problems of an Unemployed Dressage Rider

It’s been forever since I’ve blogged! Yikes, I’m sorry that I fell off the face of the earth! I really didn’t, but I’ve been super distracted because I’m trying to find a new job. I’m a director of marketing and took a voluntary severance from my job about a year ago – had a great…

Thankfulness. Appreciation. Love. Timeless.

As we near the season of tradition, giving thanks, and renewal, I was searching for some quotes about dressage that reflect where I am with my training with Carter right now and found a few that seem to capture it well. “The passionate pursuit of perfection by the obsessively imperfect.”  – unknown I’m not one…

Five Things You Do When You Decide To Leave The Only “Job” You’ve Had

First, let me preface “the only job” I’ve had. I’ve been with this company for 25.65 years (who’s counting) and while I’ve held other jobs during internships, summer, and so on, this has been my career with one company – re-inventing myself in various marketing roles for my entire tenure. My company recently offered its…

We got this!

In four days Carter and I will be competing in the GAIG/USDF Regional Dressage Championships. This is my mantra for the next 72 hours… SMILE… BREATHE…Enter A working trot, X halt salute… 1….2…3…, proceed working trot track left at c (eyes forward, head between the ears, find my focal point). hxk one loop (straightness, right/left),…

I need to grieve on my own timeline

I need to grieve on my own timeline Feeling a loss so deep that it cuts through your heart takes time. Missing a piece of you so big that you can’t fill it with as many tears as you cry – as many good memories as you have takes time to get smaller. My sorrow…